I've thought of writing a post about this but changed my mind because I thought it might sound a tad arrogant, especially if the results were just minimal.

But come to think of it, it is tokidokiwonder.blogspot.com and not comejudgeme.com , so here , :>

When I was at my heaviest, I was ....... very fat. Being fat.... really dampens your self-image, especially when almost all your girlfriends are not fat/slim. HOWEVER, that didn't motivate me not to pig out and eat unhealthily. Seriously, at one point I thought i'd never lose weight again because I just wasn't motivated enough. I see girls around me (then) ever so conscious about their weight even though i thought they looked fine and they can go about not eating meals and in the end getting stomach cramps or whatever you call it. Geeeez.


So anyway, I've been getting a LOT of people coming to me and saying "You're SO THIN!"
Well, first off. thank you :p, really:)
Second off, no thank you :(

The Thank You's are for the people who are actually happy for me. They needn't be, but at least their comments won't make me feel bad.

The NO thank yous are for people (those that actually know me a tad better) who think I am actually on a diet. Or those go about saying (why) YOU'RE SO THIN (minus the congratulatory tone), and those who think I should stop exercising/eating so little/whatever.


First off, I don't think some people can relate to me. Not when their heaviest weight was.... okay let's not go there. One thing that i really must bring forth is, I'm really happy I met koibito.
You wanna know the real answer? The REAL answer is. i've actually been (gradually) shedding weight since July of 2009. I realised that when I was tryin on an old pair of shorts ( my sister's) that i could NEVER fit in, and....... it did fit! :')

The answer isn't that I diet or any of that shit, it's just that i gradually changed my lifestyle! I moved to my cousin's place in August of 2009 as my house was being reconstructed, and I'm proud to say that since I've been here, I've only cooked mee goreng in the midst of the night less than 5 times! lolololol

And I'm also proud to say since February this year, sometimes i go jogging with Koibito. This is a hugeeee leap for me, considering I NEVER jogged. Although we only go once a week, or maybe a fortnight :( but hey, at least I try.
If it was the old me, I can't even last 3 minutes on the threadmill. Now, i can go for 25 minutes (on a good stamina day) :')

And sometimes when i want to pig out unnecessarily, Koibito gently reminds me, and though i don't succumb to this advice all the time, I listen around half the time. And my whole point is the Graduality of the little changes you make OVER TIME!

I think the person who truly understands my diet (or the lack of it) besides Koibito is Mam. I almost always eat with her in uni and do I ever eat like a sissy diet girl? NO!
I get ......... when those, especially my close ones think that I do. I mean, do you know how many YEARS I have never worn a short skirt or pants to outings just because my legs are TOO fat? Do you know how it feels when you can't really find clothes during Chinese New Year and have to resort to clothes that you didn't really like but they fit better than those that were on the mannequin? *sob
Sometimes, i think people should start being more empathetic.:<

And just like I said, it was a gradual loss (over 11 months!!!!!111). It's just that no one really paid attention. I didn't just wake up one day and lost 4.5 Kilos. And YES, it's ONLY that much.


See, i knew this post would sound weird.:/
I've been in my worst state, that's why I never ever want my friends to be where I was.
That's why you never see me encouraging someone to eat when i know they've already eaten or it's near bedtime.

Like I said, I only listen half the time to koibito, but does that stop him from advising me?
A lifestyle, is a very elusive thing to grasp. You don't just understand your body overnight.
It takes time, and gradualness. That's why you don't see me looking fab like Megan Fox or whatever. And my legs are still pudgy, just that they AREN'T AS pudgy. And I'm happy.

Okay, coming to the end of post, I really hope people could understand ~~







P/S: This is totally irrelevant but i just saw this quote

"The True Measure of a man is how he treats someone who can do him absolutely no good."

Bi, you pass you flying colours!!!! :">

Labels: princess rant

Finally i can get up and type.

Me life has been all about sleeping (20 hours a day), excretion of waste ;), fever and nauseousness for the past ungodly 4 days.

And today, after much love from koibito, i am finally able to say, i think i'm getting better :)

I came home one night and saw my sister sleeping on the sofa with a bucket beside her and i thought she had gotten drunk or something! After i went to the toilet for the umpteenth time before heading to bed, my body decided I would feel better if i Puked. Argghh. I hate puking :(. Apparently she had the same problem as me. So did my lil bro a few days ago. Poor us :(.

The next day i was too dead to get off my bed and my family thought i was sleeping in late. I sent a text to me love and after a couple of hours i woke up and there he was in me room! *so touched

That same night i was upstairs in a room when my uncle came and brought some herbal tea for my Sister.
OFL
Such is life.
Sometimes you might surprise yourself on who really cares about you. Yeah i'm complaining but even a dimwit knows my uncle cares about me too. Just that they have more affection for my sis.
And i know who has the Most affection for lil me. Zat iz my zuper duper le koibito <3

And yet again today again, i woke up to seeing his beaming figure in my room:)


I guess if it weren't for him. I would be out the 3rd day i was sick and challenge my body's mechanism all over again, and never get better.

I guess some people might think i'm anti-social but I really think completing my assignments and recouping my health is far more important than anything else. I was doing my assignments on the dining table one day and just opposite me were my cousins and sisters playing rummy. I really liked that feeling. I miss having all my cousins back here. :(

I guess I am getting old. I can't stay awake for the whole night without getting sick OFL

I thank my koibito for giving me intelligent perspectives on all areas in life and especially in health and diet. And one of them is simply: Stop eating when you're full.

(╬ ಠ益ಠ) lol easy to say. VERY hard to put into action. and i fail most of the time

That is why i absolutely hate it when people keep INSISTing i eat when i've already said i'm full. Which part of FULL don't they understand? I mean, if they do care, they'd know i've been battling with weight issues since forever. And now that i finally am doing a teeny weeny better, do they feel good to break the little mediocre result i've achieved? Ok ofcourse not, but i'm sure they dont care if they accidentally did. And this brings us back to my original issue of Who really cares about you.


Thank you koibito. And to those who were nice enough to text me and ask me about my condition. <3

P/S: Yay. i got rated as best answer in Yahoo Q& A for giving out hair styling tips (^▽^)

i want to wake up to a different rayfarer for my outfit everyday




i want to ride the bicycle in an open field




i want to be a confident ballerina



i want to have a purdy vintage camera




i want to receive love mails




i want to play in the snow



I want to live in the Faraway tree and be friends with Moonface, Silky and the Saucepan man.

Labels: princess love, princess rant

This is gonna be a PMSRanty-full post so PLEASE leave before you burn.

Idk what has gone wrong with the world. Or how social cultures have evolved. But SHIT, this ain't good. I have no mood to type in coherent sentences cuz imma BURST any second.

I can't stand:

People who just LOVE Attention
People who talk to you. But 90% of the focus is on them.
People who can't stay SINCERE and FAITHFUL
People who lie to their other halves. And never change.
People who stand STUBBORNLY on their stance, but it's all wrong.... it's alllll wronnnggg
People who have complicated flings here and there and think of those as "someone to accompany me when i'm lonely"
People who are IRONIC
People who have the underlying belief that relationships are disposable and make people perceive otherwise.
People who have always wanted to f*** your bestfriend ever since they started dating you but never got the nerve to tell you and guess what, you'll never know too.
People who use another just for their own convenience and does not even have the tendency to pretenddd to involve them in their own conversations.




It's a SADDD world out there. =(

Labels: princess angry, princess emo, princess rant

I'm in one of the uni classrooms now dreading to walk back to the hostel cuz i have a bag full of files and library books.. a laptop.. And wearing 4 inch heels and a baju skirt that likes to wave hi when the wind blows. Look at my conjunctions and you'll know the performance of my brain right now wtf.

Anyway, my new(old) watch broke!! One tiny tiny nut came off and i have been so careful with it too. FML. Now i don't know whether to get it fixed at the local watchmaker (?) or at the Gucci store.

I hope these 2 weeks will pass reallly quickly.. so i can get my assignments over and done with. On the other hand i hope it won't cuz i won't have enough time to look for sources huhuhu. Why do you call something a group work when you have to do most of the things yourself? Don't wanna venture into that too much but yeah. There's two scenarios here,
1) People who are so inactive you have to practically do their work for them
2) People who like to DIRECT but never get to anything but likes to bathe in the limelight.

I don't get it. Why do some people CRAVE for so much attention. I mean, certain attention in a while is a good ego-boost, which is a great pick me up. But i've seen people DROWN in this drug-like effect and crave for more and more and ironically enough, most pick up another stupid element, which is hypocrisy. I'm no saint, but lemmejust say, I am DISGUSTED by this behaviour.

Serzly, go fuck yourselfs

Labels: princess rant

Tonight is a good night:)

Today, a nice girl whom i seldom talked to came to chat with me on MSN and asked me to do her hair for a wedding dinner. Haha. That seriously threw me back. I mean, i'm used to my cousins coming to me to help do their hair but I never expected a friend to ask me that. I really don't know how to work on other people's hair other than mine actually. Except, isteris'. I loveee doing hers. :)


Yesterday me, yee, and chien, after DAYS of suggesting and getting excited over the idea of baking cakes, finally doggone went and DID IT. lol.
It wasn't my first time baking cakes with friends and it won't be my last. I LOVE it. Feels so domestic wtf. The process of going to buy ingredients, preparing, actually baking it, and Seeing the end product is so damn gratifying!

We decided to bake chocolate chip cookies and a lemon baked cheese cake. Don't play play, double duty okay. The cookies was mostly done by yee and the cheese cake, me, chien. Brabra joined us later.

All 4 of us realised we had good handskills at whisking. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAH


Ok. anyways, i dont have pictures yet but the end products were gooood :) The cheese cake this time didn't sink. The one i did for koibito's birthday sank so much, Alvin, who helped me a lot that day to bring my surprise cake to the restaurant asked me " Is that a cake or a layer of cheese" fml.


Tonight wasn't my idealll night. Hai.
Let u in on a secret, i hate certain events. I hate my birthday and i Hate Chinese new year. I always get fat during both these times and have a HUGE wardrobe malfunction and some calamities Always happen. For my bday, the same ol shit always happens.
Nobody ever really RSVPs me. period.
That's the way our culture works and i Absofucking HATE it. It happens to almost every single event anyone organises but yeh it's my birthday ofcourse i'm a wee sensitive about it. I really wish the world would have more empathy T T. Thank god for a blog for venting out. And koibito, he was really good tonight:)

Anyway, even if more ppl cancel out on me without telling me or dont RSVP, i'll still have him and besties :)


Saw this quote somewhere and it really makes sense :)


“Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away”

(Sex & The City).




P/S: if u realise, im being very incoherent.

Labels: princess happy, princess rant

It's a saturday!! and guess what. I'm FREE on saturdays. FInally, after 4 semesters of envying people who had a day off of school and had lots of free intervals in between, I get one too! hahaha!
That also means i have to do more chores at home. ;_;


Anyway, yesterday me and brabra went to the gym at 4. Halfway through our sweating session, a RTB crew of 3 people came. We didnt give two hoots to them as they were prolly doing an advertorial or some shit. But after they took some shots.. they began to shoot at the people. A full Back Coverage of Brabra yo!!! HAhahahahaha.

When we went upstairs for the aerobics session and they were there too!! The stupid cameraman took a whole 2 mins of me face and then me legs too! FTS!!! When he left he told me, "Thank you ya"
Ofcourse i know when it'll be aired but i don't have RTB (i think) so yea.

Ok swift jump to another topic.

Lately i've been thinking about social etiquettes. Ofcourse All of us know about the basic ones. But sometimes don't you just feel like slapping someone in the face because what they said were kinda egotistical.. unnerving... offensive.. but they don't even realise it themselves. :/

You know when you're talking to a person on a certain area that you know you fare out much better in, and don't wanna seem like a know-it-all so you just cut down on your say of the ideology or technical terms and stuff.... Well, I'M that kind of person.

Social etiquette #284, there's no need for elaborate detailing/ bragging about VAGUE prospectives or things that you DON't have, same goes for things that you have wtf.

I've been trying really nicely to seem unbothered, but pls, have SOME modesty!!
Sometimes people try to showoff what they supposedly know but give the wrong detailings/pronunciation/wtv
So much as i would want to correct them, sometimes i just keep quiet, or try to act excited too wtf.
Well, even if it's on an area that you know more about than I do, so what?

*Social etiquette #73, when talking to a person, please take in their body actions too rather than bragging your head off.

Although i admit i like to yakity yak yak to my girlfriends a lot, well, that's because they're my girlfriends and we like yakiting :)

Other than that, i do think i'm pretty well-kept, even to them.

People, have some humility. Amen



That's all
xoxo

Labels: princess rant