Sorry for the retarded looking dog at my sidebar. LOL. Apparently youtube has a new regulation that all audio has to be streamed with the video or sumzink, so my cute teddy skin has to go because it doesn't support video :(

ANYWAYS. Have a merry merry christmas yal. Yours truly is gonna have a hell of a christmas, it spells like this ----> d-i-s-s-a-p-o-i-n-t-m-e-n-t (see im so sad i even got the spelling wrong.. Oh wait, "D-I-S-S" is correct lawl)

Just got a text, even the dinner is not on. *guffaws

Shrugs, i guess it's just another case of bad fate + indecisiveness.

Nevermind, imma still be haaapy and get my cards and gifts lalala. And a kiss from me love on Xmas day. <3

i've said it before. one day, i will just stfu and leave. Quit all the complainin and chasing.

It's quite enlightening for a change.

I laugh at myself sometimes, i wonder if i'm asking for too much.

All girls love to receive consistent attention, listen to sweet nothings, and all the shimmery things we can think of... However, i don't think m lucky enough to be blessed with such. Or maybe, i'm just asking for too much......... Am I?

I guess i'll just stfu and let it be...:'(


Anywaysss, pesky things aside, this rock chick is gonna try her hands on the electric guitar next week yo!

A story i like very much. By Shel Silverstein.

Once there was a tree.

and she loved a little boy.

And every day the boy would come

and he would gather her leaves

and make them into crowns and play king of the forest.

He would climb up her trunk

and swing from her branches

and eat apples.

They would play hide-and go-seek.

And when he was tired, he would sleep in her shade.

The boy loved the tree very much,

And the tree was happy.

But time went by.

And the boy grew older.

And the tree was often alone.

Then one day the boy came to the tree and the tree said,

"Come, Boy, come and climb up my trunk and swing from my branches

and eat apples and play in my shade and be happy."

"I am too big to climb and play."

"I want to buy things and have fun. I want some money.

Can you give me some money?" said the boy.

"I am sorry. But I have no money." said the tree.

"I have only leaves and apples. Boy, take my apples, and sell them in the city. Then you will have money and will be happy."

So the boy climbed up the tree and gathered her apples and carried them away.

And the tree was happy.

But the boy stayed away for a long time, and the tree was sad.

And then one day the boy came back.

and the tree shook with joy and she said,

"Come, Boy, climb up my trunk and swing from my branches and be happy."

"I am too busy to climb trees," said the boy.

"I want a house to keep me warm, and I want a wife and children,

so I need a house. Can you give me a house?"

"I have no house," said the tree.

"The forest is my house, but you may cut off my branches and build a house."

"Then you will be happy."

And so the boy cut off her branches and carries them away to build his house.

And the tree was happy.

But the boy stayed away for a long time.

And when he came back, the tree was so happy she could hardly speak.

"Come, Boy," She whispered "Come and play"

"I am too old and sad to play," said the boy.

"I want a boat that will take me far away from here. Can you give ma a boat?"

"Cut down my trunk and make a boat." said the tree.

"Then you can sail away... and be happy."

And so the boy cut down her trunk and made a boat and sailed away.

And the tree was happy... but not really.

And after a long time the boy came back again.

"I am sorry, but I have nothing left to give you … My apples are gone."

"My teeth are too weak for apples," said the boy.

"My branches are gone, you cannot swing on them -"

"I am too old to swing on branches," said the boy.

"My trunk is gone, you cannot climb -"

"I am too tired to climb," said the boy.

"I am sorry," sighed the tree.

"I wish that I could give you something...

but I have nothing left. I am just an old stump. I am sorry..."

"I don't need very much now, just a quiet place to sit and rest. I am very tired." said the boy,

"Well," said the tree, straightening herself up as much as she could,

"Well, an old stump is good for sitting and resting. Come, Boy, sit down and rest."

And the boy did.

And the tree was happy.

I love this story. It's seemingly simple, yet touchingly portrays the unconditional love we have for the ones we care and (sadly) human's growing tendencies to want better and better things in life. We quest for bigger and better things and take for granted the offerings of our loved ones.
And most if not all of the time, they're the ones who stand by us, no matter how we treat them.

On another note, having just read Walt Whitman's "Song of the Open Road", i feel like confinement to a solitary place is just.... prison. It IS an open road out there. I agree yet disagree with it, maybe because SOMEONE adheres with Whitman's perspective so well and i just don't want him to leave ;"(

A good compromise, Live it, but at the end of the day, return to our loved ones, just like the Tree and the Little boy?

I don't think yal know what i'm blabbering about here, le sigh. Anyways, enjoy the story:)

Labels: princess emo, sweet thoughts

Lookie that!!! These are tattoos based on the illustrations of the children's book "Where the Wild things are". Honestly speaking, I have no idea what that book's about, but for some strange reason i really really like these creatures.
They remind me of an illustration/ character in a story book i used to read when i was little but i can't remember what it was about!!
Something about a cute monster definitely :)

I am rotting to death. :(
Anyways, just a random piece i made. Nite

OK WAIT. This is too funny!!!
I wanted to type in the google search bar Why (my question), but before i had the chance to type the other words, all these (seemingly) STUPID suggestions came out, like:

Why do men have nipples?
Why is the sky blue?
Why is my poop green?
Why do cats purr?
Why do dogs eat grass?
Why did i get married?



HAHAHAHAHAHHA. Ok . stop.

Labels: princess love

Okay, almost 2 years ago. I fell in love. okay, i don't care how you'd call it, love,lust,crush, obsession(?!).......whatever

There was this guy. He had the greatest charisma i have ever seen. Those enchanting eyes....... and not to forget, his hands.. oh those magical magical hands........

































WHAT??? Don't get me wrong okay! I'm talking about Cyril here!






I fell in love with him after seeing his magic. Some of it were cliched, but i couldn't help feeling great admiration for this man. Thinking back it feels so silly, but i was o-b-s-e-s-s-e-d!




I bought all his DVDs i could find. Watched them in glee wtf. Tried to understand how the magic worked. When i turned off my DVD player i thought about him day and night and what a wonderful man he was.












I joined Myspace just BEcause. Yes, just because he has a myspace account. I dropped him comments (2 times only la), together with all the weirdo people who obsessed him too.
Although he never replied our comments, we have a tiny place in our heart called Hope that he'll one day do wtf.




Besides Cyril, i became interested in Magic X too. I added all of em up and was fascinated by magic altogether.









I also decided that i HAD to take Japanese, although I've always loved languages. But this time, i had another motive. I told myself i HAD to take Japanese and i HAD to go Japan. I checked his tour dates and tried to estimate where he'd be. Even though I know i wouldn't be able to meet him at least I had stepped on the land he was born in hahaha
That was the reason why i was so devasated and angry at myself when one of my mate ( who was as eager as me to go) told me she had issues and didn't wanna go already and since there wasn't anyone accompanying me anyway i chose to go shopping in Singapore over Starving but absorbing culture in expensive Japan wtf >:(

I was more devastated, Crushed even, when most of my friends went this year and i couldnt. That's fate and what it does to you. Sighh >:'(




Anyway, back to Cyril. I feel sillier by the moment now Omg.
I even made a video compiling all his pictures and also made THIS. HAHAHAHA.







I joined his fanpage in Facebook last year and there was only like..... Two fans? (ok i joke, but you get what i mean). I posted his pictures to the fan page and there's that.
My obsession slowly died down, but hahah OMG i was a weirdo fan girl!





Anyway, i don't know what's up lately ( as yal know, i'm still a fan, just not obsessed anymore lol), but people's been commenting on my Cyril Photos almost everyday!!! I have a slight suspiscion that i might be all thos Cyril specials airing in AXN lately.



I should be happpehh, people are seeing what i see. I am. UNTIL this. BOO YOU.
I saw a photo of this guy WITH CYRIL (omg!) and ofcourse i commented. So did other fags. One of em was saying he was jealous and i said " Me too". And other light hearted envious comments followed but he replied specifically to ME.



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Please tell me why i am not heading to bed yet! i am seriously mentally and physically exhausted but Blame the stupid internet addiction! huhu

Me Time:)