The anxieties are surely gettin' in on me I sway aimlessly in this grey arena. Two more weeks before I end my teaching practice and 5 more months before I officially end my undergraduate life and hop into the rambling "real" world.
I'm at a loss. I think back on all the academic shitnitz conquered over the past 4 years and I don't want to leave them behind. At the same time, I awe myself in seeing how aloof I am towards doing anything remotely academic at the moment *irony. This is what four months of working has done to me, what say 4 years.
What happens to idealistic novice graduates when they step into the community? Do we slowly get impaired by the gradual contamination of the authorities or we do excel and impart new changes? Would we still holdforth the same beliefs as we did?